I have a strong testimony of visiting teaching. I've been a not- so- hot one at times, but feel that I've come a long way and can say that "I get it" and know the importance of this calling. I get frustrated when sisters don't do their visiting or make it complicated to be visited. I've tried my best to take all challenges whether it was drive to a sister's house 40 minutes away to be there at 8:30 in the morning and only allowed 30 minutes to share a message. OR sometime I will just show up to at least meet the person. Anyway, I really want to be a great visiting teacher. I want the sisters that I visit know that I believe they are a daughter of God and I will treat them as such. That no one is too good or too bad to receive a spiritual message. We all need God in our lives. I want them to know that I truly visit them because I want to know them, help them, be there for them when they need me and because nothing is so important that I can't spare a few moments of my month to spend with them. I don't see them as just a number or me trying to have a perfect record. I really love them. And I'm amazed at how the Lord blesses us with the ability to love those we don't even know when we truly try to serve others.
NOW WITH THAT SAID. . . this past month I didn't do my visiting teaching. I had one sister. ONE SISTER!!! I didn't even have a companion to have to worry about coordinating schedules. Just me and that sister. The last day of the month while I was preparing for YW in Excellence it was all I thought about in my mind. I had only texted her and just waited for her response about a week or so before. Now here it was the last day I didn't send a letter or even call. The disappointment I feel within myself, embarrassment, and lack of discipline. I had a BIZARRE, crazy month but if I had just visited her I feel that somehow my month would have gone better. Smoother. I fight tears while I type because I literally have no excuse. I cannot think of one good reason that I could not have done something. Her birthday was even in November. I have never had to report that I did NOTHING in I don't know how long, if ever. I feel like I have truly disappointed the Lord. I sincerely say that I feel shame. It hurts. And to that sister I don't know how I can say I'm sorry and know that it really is important to me to visit you. I do care.
I do care.
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